Feels good to be home. We were living out of our suitcases for almost 4.5 months. I noticed Sean skipping along in a very upbeat mood the moment we arrived in Domodedovo Airport. As we walked towards the arrival hall, I turned to Brian and said, "Imagine if we're actually walking towards the airplane now, on our way to Singapore, and the past 4 months never happened! Imagine these past months had just been a dream, and PSLE is not over! Imagine that." We laughed. I added, "Even worse, imagine you don't actually have your DSA offer yet." Arrrggghhhh, just thinking about this sent unimaginable chills through our spines!
And then Sean said, "Imagine that all the years since you were born never happened. Imagine that!"
I pondered, "Hmmm, I wouldn't mind that. If I knew all the things I knew now, there would be many things I'd do differently." Quietly, I was thinking of timing the stockmarket based on what I knew and becoming a trillionaire, hehe, but I didn't say this to the kids cos before I could, Brian jumped in with, "No, you can't change anything. You have to do the exact same thing, if you had tripped over a rock, you'd have to trip over the exact same rock. Otherwise your whole future will be changed."
Okay, so maybe I won't be a trillionaire, but just for discussion's sake, I told them that based on what I know now, if I had to live my life again, thinking back of my rebellious teenage years, I said, "I think I would understand my parents more, I would be less unreasonable, I would be less reckless and I would definitely make a whole lot less mistakes." Wasn't trying to psycho my soon-to-be teenager in any way, that was just how I feel.
But as Brian said, we can't change things, can we? It did get me thinking about how I'd look back at the me of today twenty years from now. Would I wish I had done things a lot more differently? I really hope not...